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Sunday
Wednesday
empty nest
today is the first day in 33 years that i don't have a child to take care of.
of course i still have children, and they still need care,
but i am not shopping, cooking and cleaning for them.
i am not taking them anywhere, or hanging their clothes to dry.
i am not finding any surprises they have left in my absence.
everything is exactly as i left it.
i have fantasized about this day since probably
the first week of emma's life.
that someday i wouldn't be responsible for everything.
that i could "do what i wanted".
well, hello day; here you are.
what have i done with my day so far?
i got up and went into frances's bed
and looked out the window for awhile.
i practiced my yoga in complete silence.
i ate breakfast alone
with no reason to turn the radio down.
i worked. i made lunch.
i started a grocery list for one. i called my mother.
i have ambitious mental lists of all the productive things
i will accomplish in my free evenings.
photo albums, baby clothes to knit,
bookshelves to have built, so many books to read.
i could end up working late 7 days a week
and living on canned beans over lettuce
which has been known to happen.
right now i am just listening to
the silence of one, plus
an old rabbit who is sneezing.
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